There are three notable scenes,
however, when Celie fails at
shutting out her feelings and living without expectations. These are all when
her life stops being one-sided and she gains attention from others when it was
not expected. The first is when Sofia approaches her for telling Harpo to beat
her. Beating was what Celie had come to expect from husbands and thus her
advice to Harpo seemed logical at the time. With more thought, Celie soon
realizes that this was not right and she had done a “sin against Sofia spirit”
(Walker 39). She is unable to sleep because her actions had negatively affected
another person and she is forced to feel responsible for them. This ultimately
results in an unprecedented sharing of herself to someone other than God;
someone who can talk back to her.
Another time Celie feels something
when she does not expect to is when she encounters Shug’s naked body. Celie
has, understandably, emotionally removed herself from all things sexual. She
has never derived pleasure from sex, especially because her first sexual
experiences were both rape and incest. To her, sex has always been an attack
and something to be withstood. When Celie first sees Shug naked and bathes her,
she equates it to prayer. She finds something spiritual in Shug’s body that she
has never found in any other body, including her own. Her emotional walls
actually fall when Shug expresses genuine concern about Celie’s sexual
experience. It is the first time in Celie’s life that she has been treated as
someone with sexual agency rather than someone to be used for “business.” When
Celie cries at night while hearing Albert and Shug in bed, it is not clear
whether she is mourning the desertion by her husband or by Shug.
Perhaps the most striking overflow
of emotion from Celie comes when she finds out that Nettie has been attempting
to contact her for all these years, but Mr.______ has been withholding the
letters from her. She not only is overwhelmed by the fact that Mr.______ has
betrayed her so completely by denying her access to the one person who ever
loved her, but she is also shocked by being loved. Celie has forced herself not
to expect love or attention from anyone and finding these letters brings up
feelings that she has never experienced before.
For me, Celie’s relationships
called to mind King’s “Letter from Birmingham Jail.” He talks about personhood
and how easy it is for someone to become convinced that they are not worthy of
being considered a person in the eyes of society. Celie has been treated as an
object for most of her life and has come to expect and accept this. For her,
issues arise when she is valued. Though these are typically moments of distress,
they are also the only moments where she is forced to feel and grants herself
personhood.
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